Politics & the Celebrity Elite

Headlines everywhere today read: "Aaron Carter Endorses Donald Trump!"

Well, for a D list celebrity (as his haters, not me, are calling him), Aaron Carter sure as hell made a splash today! His name is EVERYWHERE for this endorsement and almost none of it is support. Except for me.

I may be biased, because I too am a Trump supporter. Of course that means I was happy with this endorsement. However, this is what I hate about social media. Just because someone shares a personal view on something that people strongly disagree with, it means they lose fans. 

How about we listen to each other, like open hearted and opened minded human beings about WHY we support or don't support people? Why we feel the way we do about certain things? We may just learn something. If you make an informed decision, you can't go wrong for YOURSELF. You either make a good choice or you learn from the downfalls of it. Yeah, there's a ripple effect, but we all go into that voting booth ALONE and the amount of propaganda is disgusting on both sides. So it's best to have our own research and opinion anyway and not knock others for doing the same.

The personal attacks being sent to Aaron are disgusting. Calling him a D list meth addict and everything! He is someone who has struggled with addiction and it's not something to poke fun at. I lost my brother to years of addiction and he hung himself over the summer. But I digress. The lack of privacy and the risk of attacks like what is happening to Aaron is exactly why so many in Hollywood (especially A and B list celebrities) have become puppets and followers instead of leaders. They know it could mean the end of their career and smearing of their name if they dare to step out and be different from the rest.

Listen, I'm not knocking the majority of Hollywood, or anyone in the country for that matter, for disagreeing with me. That's the beautiful thing about this country. I couldn't care less who you support, or what you do as long as it's an informed decision and also not something that I feel will hurt others or this country as a whole if we're talking strictly politics. 

So, Oh Aaron, props to you for having the balls to speak out and support someone of your own choosing! 

Be Your Own Valentine. Love Yourself: For All My Singles...

I have heard that February 13th is National Self Love/Self Care Day, but I'm choosing to write about it on a day that's focused on love every year...Valentine's Day.

Through participating in Sunny Dawn Johnston's 44 day mind, body, spirit detox, I realized that I suffer from a lack of self love and self care. Before doing the detox, I didn't even think that was possible for me. It just never occurred to me, until I reminded myself and made the connection that everything going on in my external environment, was and always is a direct reflection of what is going on in my internal environment. 

Self doubt. Fear. Anxiety. Stress. Lack.

Just to name a few.

I know of the idea that everything going on externally is a reflection of what's going on internally, but I also liked to participate in blame and always think it was someone else's issues or uncontrollable circumstances that were just annoying the living shit out of me and I couldn't do anything about it cuz it was their fault and I was trying to help THEM past it and not myself. It was much easier but that belief and perspective made my life harder in the end. God forbid I admit that I was choosing to deal with it because the extreme alternatives scared me. So nope. It's all everyone else's fault!

Wrong.

I choose to be around the people I surround myself with, which means I ultimately choose their behavior and all situations that transpire from my bedroom to trips out of state or meeting strangers on the street because I'm a match to it inside somehow...even when I don't make the connection as to how.

I've depleted myself at times in life. I'm a giver and I have a very hard time receiving, despite the many blessings I have already received in life and am forever grateful for. I'm no martyr, I do know how blessed I am which is why I give of my time, energy, love, money and so much more whenever I can. That's not a bad thing, unless it leaves you depleted. 

Well, I will never again say that the universe hasn't given me a hard lesson to learn. Sure, I've ALWAYS looked at my "disability" as the "ability" to overcome obstacles and teach the world about embracing differences. That was never a tough one for me. No, what's hard as hell is to learn is that it's okay and necessary to receive and it's okay to feel and say that you currently have no more to give and that maybe you need the love you're so freely giving to everyone else. I have felt like it would be selfish of me to ever feel this way but that doesn't change the fact that I do. So I suffered a lot of guilt and shame because of it.

I always get bashful when people compliment me; looks, outlook etc. I accept it and thank them, but I also am extremely humble about it. I've grown up believing ego was a terrible thing. Throughout life I've adopted the belief that I was asking for too much, so I stopped asking for anything. It wasn't even necessarily people telling me that either. Life just unfolded in certain ways that left me honestly wanting to put my desires on the back burner over and over. I started to feel guilty for wanting or needing anything from a ride on a night out with friends (okay so some did cause me to feel guilty for that LOL) to wanting to be the owner of a mind, body, spirit center. Well, damn that lack mentality to hell now. 

I'm a deserving person. I'm deserving of love. I'm deserving of abundance. I'm deserving of freedom. I'm deserving of safety and security. I'm deserving of amazing experiences and amazing people. I also deserve to dispel my life of any and all negativity in all of its forms. That's going to get a lot of push back, but that's not my fault. Once I change my habits and behavior, it's going to cause my life to shift in many ways. 

No, this blog isn't an anti Valentine's Day blog. It's a blog expressing that I love myself while I await the arrival of all that the universe has on the way for me.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all..." - Whitney Houston

My Belief in Love Has Been Restored

My belief in love has been restored 

I would make a video about this, but my phone can't handle more videos until I upload my fitness one. 

Anyway, this morning I saw the new pictures of Khloe and Lamar. My heart burst and my smile hurt my cheeks! I have so many thoughts on this, all that can be summed up in one word and a few emojis:

AHHH ❤️💖❣💗💛💚💕💘💙💞💝💜💓

I am BEYOND happy! My faith in love has been restored! I always loved them together and I had a feeling one day they would be back together! 

Okay, calm down, it's one night of pictures and it doesn't mean they're together romantically. Okay, but what if they are?! Let's discuss.

As I said, I always loved Khloe and Lamar together. It broke my heart when they broke up and when I started to hear of Lamar's struggles. So many people have so much shit to say about it, so I figured I'd say my piece. 

Lamar is, first and foremost, a human being. He's been a broken, shattered person since he was a kid. His relationship, or lack thereof, with his father and his fathers' own struggles effected him a lot. That happens. When your parent is an addict, you either follow in their footsteps or stay away from it. Lamar is not the first or last person that has gone down a wrong path. There's a reason his life was spared and I wish him nothing but love, for himself and whichever good support system he chooses to keep around.

Khloe is a strong ass woman. Period, point blank. I love her and Lamar together, but to be quite honest, I don't know if I'd have half the strength she's had to be there in a marriage with him for so many years and then be by his side when he was at deaths' door. For my own sanity and health, I probably would have left too but not been able to be there as a friend and then again when he almost died. But I'm not in love with him, so I can't really say that I wouldn't. It's no secret that Khloe never fell out of love with Lamar, which plays a big part in why she stuck around and why they may be back together. It's a testament to how strong she is as a person and how strong love can be. 

People are gonna talk shit, but I choose to see 2 people in love, trying to make it work. Plus, seeing Lamar out with Khloe's whole family reminded me of tweets he sent out a few years ago. He basically bashed the haters and said Khloe and her family were the only real family he's ever had. He loves them and it's clearly reciprocated so I hope that people can wish them well and be done with it.